もういやや （舊文）

心の中に大きい、底なしな穴が開いてる。寂しがりやの私は温もりを探し続きます。ずっと、心の中には何かが物足りないが感じがする。

the deepest sorrow inside me (wrote on Aug 12, 2006)

Walked by a started moped on my way home from hotel, fell the heat blew to my face from the exhaust pipe. It suddenly came to me that it has been a long time that I did not take a ride on the moped.

The very last time was July 19, 2006. When I went to Christine's place and played with her cat, Mitsumi. When I climbed up to the back seat, it made me think of my mom who passed away 2 years ago. I haven't ridden on anyone's moped since she hospitalized.

She used to take me wherever I wanted to go if she was available, or I would go shopping with her. I used to say, the time that we had on the moped was our quality time. We often joked, discussed almost everything when we on the road. Till now, I rarely think about these moments, cos I would sink again into the sorrow where there is no end.

It has been two years now, her image is still by my side vividly. I tried soooo very hard not to think of her during the day as I would break down right away and drench in tears. There are still many things would remind me of the time we spent together. Time passes by, but this still does not ease the pain deep within me......

第一次挑戰煮日式紅燒魚 （寫於2008年5月）

在台灣的時候，不曉得看料理東西軍或是日本的美食旅行節目有多少次，去日本的時候也有吃過好幾次。終於在上星期休假前，到日本超市逛逛，發現了兩種很適合作日式紅燒魚的魚；ㄧ種是キンキ喜知次魚；另一種是カレイ鰈魚。興沖沖的買了魚，味霖與料酒回家。

有些部位魚鱗沒有刮乾淨，花了好些時間才把魚下巴，魚鰭等部位處理乾淨。第二天與第三天的中午就分別燒了魚當午飯吃，醬油湯汁跟白麵拌在ㄧ起非常美味喔！可惜煮的時間久了ㄧ點，魚肉嘗起來有點老，希望下次會有進步！

（日式紅燒魚與中式清蒸魚很像，都是以醬油，料酒與薑來調味去腥。只是日式的是用煮的，中式是用蒸的。）

Jump by Madonna

舊文 - 寫於2007 年秋季

Jump ~ Madonna
這首歌的歌詞與我近半年的心境很像
也有收錄在穿著Prada的惡魔的電影原聲帶中

Jump

written by Madonna, Joe Henry, and Stuart Price
Track 8, Time: 3:46
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(Spoken:)
There's only so much you can learn in one place
The more that I wait, the more time that I waste

I haven't got much time to waste, it's time to make my way
I'm not afraid of what I'll face, but I'm afraid to stay
I'm going down my own road and I can make it alone
I'll work and I'll fight til I find a place of my own

Chorus:

Are you ready to jump
Get ready to jump
Don't ever look back, oh baby
Yes, I'm ready to jump
Just take my hands
Get ready to jump

We learned our lesson from the start, my sisters and me
The only thing you can depend on is your family
And life's gonna drop you down like the limbs of a tree
It sways and it swings and it bends until it makes you see

Chorus2:

Are you ready to jump
Get ready to jump
Don't ever look back, oh baby
Yes, I'm ready to jump
Just take my hands
Get ready to, are you ready

(Spoken:)
There's only so much you can learn in one place
The more that you wait, the more time that you waste

I'll work and I'll fight til I find a place of my own
It sways and it swings and it bends until you make it your own

I can make it alone
I can make it alone
I can make it alone [my sisters and me]
I can make it alone [my sisters and me]
(repeat)

(chorus)
(chorus2)